Well... For those of you that may not know me, I lost my dad a few years ago. In fact it will be exactly two years this June. Now I know its not my fault, but I cant help but blame myself, not really for his death but for things that we never got to do.. or things I never told him. It didn't help much when I lost my horse this past November.. and I feel 100% guilty about that. I feel like I didn't help her the way I could. I feel like I let her down by making the decision of putting her to sleep. Deep down I know that I helped her.. she was in so much pain. 7 years ago.. I also suffered a great loss. My aunt died in a car accident.. I partly blame myself.. I also know that deep down I need to let it go. Hanging on to stuff like this for so long cant be healthy. I have done many things I regret, I've done drugs.. and stuff like that. I just dont know what to do anymore.