I thought I would be ok but I'm not. I have to keep pretending but it's all lies. I still love you like mad. I wish I didn't love you so much. I wish you could've loved me as much. I thought I'd curl up and die if you ever left, but I'm just empty now. a fate worse. You know things about me that I wish no one knew, and I thought it would be ok, but now I'm so lost. I should've never opened up to you. I don't know what to do. I want to crawl into a tiny hole and stay there til I fade away. I wish I never existed.