I feel so alone right now it makes me almost ill. I feel i've always been ignored, misunderstood, always overlooked. Always walking alone. No one has ever really asked who I am. I have no one but my parents and god bless them but it doesnt really make me feel any better. There's never been anyone there for me who is my age. Most people seem to have something that draws people to them and people open up to them and have time for them but i only seem to repel people. If I didn't open my mouth id probably never speak to anyone outside my family most days. I've done nothing wrong, I don't look abnormal. I guess im just too damn quiet. I'm searching myself for a reason to carry on. Not just because i'm alone but life is shit. I'm gonna die at the end of the day. The part inbetween is suppost to be enjoyable is it not. I've set myself a deadline and if things aren't better i'm going to kill myself end of story. I am my own man in life so I may as well die by my own hand as well. The only time i'm not depressed is when i'm asleep. Hopefully death will be a neverending sleep.