sad. oh sad always. :sad: :sad: :sad: :sad: :sad: :sad: Have you ever cried in silence because you did not want to hear your pain outloud? Did you ever feel so robbed that down to your core/soul felt bare and naked? Did you ever think my family really & truely does not love me? Did you ever wish to the heavens and universe you could go back in time and have a 'do over' and allow your mistakes to dissapear? Have you ever loved a person, trusted them fully only to be abandoned as if you are unworthy? Have you ever given up on the rest of your life cuz the pain of the past? today is my birthday and i am crying. The three males that I wish I could bring back to my life are gone. I know I won't give myself much more time until the next attempt. I wanted my grandmother to pass first. I did not want to cause her any more pain. I should not even post this at all, no one really needs to know or care. No one will even notice that I am not there anymore. That is sad to me. thank you for taking time to read.