I was wondering who here is suffering from depression, thoughts of suicide, etc. and is surrounded by everyone who is perfect and normal and you are the only one suffering and feel so frustrated? I am Indian myself and as many know, Indians place high priority on academics, getting a good job, etc. It sounds good but not for me when I am surrounded by everyone else (all Indians) who are very happy, better than me in grades, everything actually. My brother and his friends just graduated from high school (they are 17/18, I am 21) and I will be going to their parties this month. They will all be so happy, so full of life, full of dreams and ambition and all that crap, like NORMAL POEPLE. Whereas I am the exact opposite of them. I stick out like an extremely sore thumb, especially with me having depression and thinking of suicide. I know that everyone regardless of race, ethnicity, weath, etc. suffers from depression, but it seems its much less acknowledged in Asian communities, its more taboo, more to be ashamed of, more hidden. I know there are many Indians (Indian and Indian American like me) that have depression, thoughts of suicide and have committed suicide, but none I know of. In fact, I've even been surprised hearing stories of some Indian Americans that have committed suicide. I feel very alienated obviously. :sad: I know that many look perfect on the outside but are probably deeply suffering inside, I don't see them much so if they are suffering (probably not!) , all I see is their happy side.