Hi all. I've been a user here for years but it seems I always come back around the same time each year to vent. I think I might suffer from SAD but who knows. I.haven't seen a therapist in years unfortunately. Ever since my father passed away almost two years ago when I was 17 I can't afford to take care of myself, my family has been struggling since his death... I miss my father so much. Even though he died in a car wreck I think he lost the will to live, but that's another story for another time. Anyway, right now... I.just want to die. I have so many problems I don't know where to begin... I'm pregnant, unemployed, no friends, a bf who would rather get drunk every night with his friends than spend time with me and is emotionally distant... financial issues out the ass. I just can't deal with it all. I have no one to turn to. Even earlier my mom was talking about driving her car off a cliff because she has so many problems. I would never say it, but I'm right there with her. I don't know how I'm going to make it. I hope I do but it's getting tough... This has been too long so I'm going to end it here. Thanks for taking the time to read through all that crap.