I'm alone with my parents but i've been with them for 16 years so they're not much company or entertainment... I wanted to go to a party or something but i'm an Outcast where I live, so thats not possible.
Glasses of Champagne, TV remote control (Jool's Holland), tears running down my eyes and day-dreaming about what I could have been and what I could still probably be, for me. -.-
Happy New Year, I guess. I don't see anything happy about it though.
I will also be spending new year's eve by myself, but that's the way I want to spend it. Just me and my animals.:smile: Maybe a little chat party would be cool.:smile: I don't want to be, and have to travel to, any parties as I'm not all that fond of big loud parties. I'd rather be home with my animals watching a favorite movie and not having to be out driving with all the drunks. :blink:
I used to find amusement in such events but not anymore. I now celebrate much more quietly:wink: and enjoy it just as much if not more.
For some reason New Years eve is the most difficult day of the year for me. It just reminds me that another year has passed and nothing in my life has changed. The same tears in my eyes, the same pain i went through last year, and the year before and the year before. So many people my age out there enjoying their youth and celebrating life, while im sitting here alone conteplating death. Its a challenge just trying to make it past this day. It hurts so much. The loneliness is so unbearable.
Whats new years without Jools Hollands hootenanny :unsure: Ug, was kinda hoping to find out. Oh well never mind, was determined to be all positive about this new year but oh well maybe things will look brighter tomorrow :smile: Merry New Year everybody!