I usually just pass it off and think nothing of it, but today is my birthday and not a single person has said happy birthday. I ask myself what did I do to deserve this. I have nothing and no one. I run with a group of friends, and when I am with them I use to feel so great, but now it has got to the point that it hurts to be around them too much. I see them go off when we are done to there families, girlfriends, boyfriends, husbands, and wives. and I go home alone to nothing and no one. I sit here crying and realizing just how alone I am. How do I go on, or more importantly why continue to go on. The reason will be "well you never know what will happen tomorrow", but for me I have been waiting for that tomorrow for at least 5 years. Am I to continue to wait and suffer the way I feel in hopes that something great finally happens. I go back to the people I run with and how they tell there kids and loved ones that they love them. I have never had that. That enjoyment I used to have being with them is now over shadowed by how empty and alone I feel with them. So what do I do? Why continue when there is nothing to continue for?