lately my symptoms have been acting up leaving me in pain ... i am so tired of this... not only that but i feel more alone in it than ever. i thought i had found someone to share it with, my sickness with since it is a part of me but it seems as if he is pushing me away or pulling away. either one i don't know. i want to give up. i know my emotions are on high right now but i want to give up. why not? i am already in hell. alone in hell. could it really get any worse than that?