My boyfriend just told me that he thinks I needed space so I agreed that we shouldn't see each other for a while. He's the only person who stayed, listened and made me feel that there's still a reason for me to live--and that's him. He was so patient with me despite my intense mood swings, unreasonable dramas, etc. He was there every time I wanted to rant and vent out my feelings. He was the best boyfriend anyone could ever have. But I think I pushed him hard already and I seemed to have damaged him too. I've been like this for months already and this started last year, October 2012 and gradually became worse; and he still stayed with me for that long and he even tried to fix me. I know it's my fault for depending on him too much and maybe it is time that I should start helping my self on this situation. I've lost the will to live and to do my daily tasks such as school and organization work. I don't even find the usual things that I do, fun anymore. I just feel very lonely for quite some time now. It's affecting my academics as well, I can't perform well anymore and it's embarrassing me. I don't wanna go to school anymore. I feel like I've lost my friends. I'm not as close with them as before and I think I've become boring. I feel like a nuisance to everybody as well. In terms of family, I really hate them. I'm not close with any of them and they don't like me either. I feel so alone right now. I think I am alone.