I struggle to find any point in life and I find my existence is merely a nuisance. I have some great people surrounding me but I push them away. How I feel always seems to overpower how they make me feel, which seems so ungrateful as they should be enough. My family have been quite supportive but lately they have all argued and they all have their own problems so I don't think I can't talk to them. Also having some of closest people I know turn around and tell me to stop making it all bout me or just be happy can kind of put you off talking to people. I guess I just feel quite alone and blame myself.