I am 25 and I live with my family at home. But despite this I am very alone. I see myself as the outcast. I am shy and someone who lacks confidence. Never had a girlfriend and I don't really have any friends. Although I am sure my family love me, they make my life hell. They put so much pressure on me to be someone. They all call me a loner becuase I don't have any friends and when I am out with them they always point out at people, mostly couples, and ask me why I can't be like that. It makes me so upset it makes me cry when I think about in bed. I have a job but I hate it. No body likes me and they always talk about me. I really want to leave but if I do, I'll be at home and my parents will be even worse. I can't afford to move out. I feel there is no way out. I know there people who are in worse situations than me, and people will think i'm selfish becuase I have family around me. But they make me so low. I would rather live alone. But last night for the first time I thought about ending it. My life is going knowhere. I dread everyday. I am not a bad person so why does no one like me. All I want is a girl in my life but I cant get one. I have tried everything but they never seem interested. I think girls are attracyed by confidence, which is something I don't have and that on top of my ugliness. If I had someone who loved me as I am, I would be so happy. Just one person. THATS ALL I WANT. But as days go by, I feel worse and worse. I think so hard that I miss my stop on the way to work. What am I going to do? I know im just another case here, but any advice would be appreacted. Sorry for the structure of this post, its like me life, messed up.