I feel like cutting. I feel so worthless and pathetic right now and I know that it doesn’t help or make anything better but I don’t know why, I just was to focus on something else right now, haven’t cut in a while actually - saw pictures of Aaron (my ex) with a girl in York on facebook, I know it could be nothing, but it looked fairly intimate, I just feel so stupid for holding on to something that clearly isn’t there anymore. It’s been a year since we separated and I can’t seem to get over him. I just feel so alone. We were together for so long that I’ve forgotten how to depend on myself and I feel really overwhelmed with my emotions and I’ve lost the only person I could ever speak to. I thought I was coping really well but then every now and again something happens which brings me back to square one again; even if its just a bad day at work, I’ll come home and cry wishing he was still here. I used to be angry at him; I’d even go as far as to say I hated him for leaving me. Now I just feel helpless, and I can’t handle knowing that he isn’t going to come back.