I'm a sophomore in high school and I've had clinical depression since I was 11. My father abandoned my family to live with another family when I was young and as a result it has made it almost impossible for me to trust people and connect with people. I just feel so hopelessly disconnected with the whole world. I have a few friends but it's purely superficial none of them know the real me. I spend most of me days laying on my bed and staring at my ceiling because I can't bring myself to move instead of going to the mall or dating like a normal teenager. I'm so exhausted feeling so lonely. Every time I go to sleep I hope that I wont wake up. I wish I could connect with somebody so I could feel like a person. I have this constant fantasy of going in my bathtub and cutting open my wrists with my box cutter. I guess I'm posting this on here because I want someone to tell me they went through a similar experience and got thought it.