I live more or less by myself but when I'm alone and not talking I get so angry with myself and stuff. I start cutting to control my feelings and end up messing myself up. Recently I started having accidents at work on machines (on porpouse). (that makes no sence). I cut deep but know where to cut to not bleed to death but to see bones. I make a good first aider in work when others badly hurt them selfs because I'm not scared of boold like others.