I am so alone, I came here for a reason I have forgotten but just to prove how alone I am. I have no friends no messages no one really cares whether I live or not. Not even me. I am so tired of this continuous fight to be "normal" and live I work because I have to pay the bills --- Why If I was not here I would have no bills. When not working I am contemplating, planning, working out the strategy. Wondering who if anyone would care. Most of the time I cannot get out of bed. No motivation to exist. I hate me and my life. I just want out.