Lately, I really feel like I’m losing control of myself, I sincerely apologize if it always sounds like I’m complaining. I try and hide it, but I can’t. I hate my reflection, I can’t stand what I look like, I look fat, but what do I care? Everybody’s looking at me, what do you want me to do. I’m starting to live like a recluse, the truth is you are all giving me an excuse for it. Why in the world do I feel so alone. I guess I’m just talking to myself.