i need to be alone but every time I am alone something prevents me. people dont want me to think, so I cant think. people want me to fail, so I fail. others dont want change, so nothing changes. altruism suffers, ego wins. i am altruistic, so I am not happy because others do not want me happy. I cannot harm others but others harm me without remorse. I believe in normal equilibrization others believe in entropy others believe in nothingness others believe in infinity i am too softhearted to change things myself I need to be alone but for others i cannot it seems the worse people are the more they get I believe in more inaction, less money but it hurts positive people and rewards hoarders flippers, breaking what isn't broken i dont want the world to look like the us my honest self needs no one i am an abstract thinker i don't understand when people hurt me, dont care, go into denial isnt it easier to be good than bad? to be clear and truthful?