well... i did it again, like always. 2 nights ago, i went to my step sisters grad party, a good time in the beginning. there were blunts to be passed around and stories and memories to be shared. everything was going well, having fun for the first time in months. then i got too serious with a guy... we ended up talking all night, i ended up admitting to him i cut myself. i showed him my cuts, i thought he really cared. its two days later, he hasnt called me, i havent heard a word. he said he would keep in contact. i trusted somebody for the first time in months, im such a fucking idiot! i just HAD to say something, i freaked him out, i actually wanted to see him again. i ruined this just like every other relationship ive ever had. triggered.