Always & forever

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Lorax, Sep 25, 2013.

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  1. Lorax

    Lorax Well-Known Member

    There's no hope, not in my life. I can improve my situation, gobble pills, talk about my plans...

    It's just a lie anymore. I can't escape how i feel. I tried every med i can think of, tried meditation, tried finding better relationships, work, no work.

    Nothing helps, it occasionally makes it worse though. It's not just the moods, insomnia, or knowing how scary life is. Or how people always use you, and leave.

    I see 0 point to life. Go through it in pain, loose more important relationships, work all day to make bill payments, die. I see nothing more.

    I want to "try" at least. Let people think i'm happy, let them know i tried in the end. I see it as inevitable. I know eventually i'll be gone. We all "go" someday..

    I don't want to say it anymore. I refuse to let the remaining 3 people in my world try to stop it. Or think they could change how i see this.

    Bye hope,
    I never knew ye.
     
  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Has something happened recently to cause you to lose hope?

    Here and listening if you feel like talking.
     
  3. Lorax

    Lorax Well-Known Member

    Well i'm down to "2" people in my world. One of which said he gets tired of talking. The other just vanished.

    It's nothing particular, seems i lost another partner, kinda sucks. Seems like everywhere i turn there's a "trigger" of some sort.

    Just can't cope anymore.
     
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