Today i was actually having a good day which for me is a rare thing. Anyway a bunch of people started harassing me about my looks. Basically saying I'm a retard and i should be locked up etc... Its happened to me many a time before but this time i almost snapped. For a minute i was afraid i would lose control and hurt someone. I just can't take this anymore, i don't even want to go out in public again. It seems like everytime I'm out someone make a rude comment on my looks. I just don't get it do i really look that bad that i should just go off myself now?. I can't take being alone with nobody for much longer its getting to the point where i just hate people period! Maybe i should be locked up last time i was in a psych ward i actually was treated with respect by other people. It makes me just want to OD just to get back there even if i hurt myself in the progress.