This is a short note here to firstly reassure all who sent nice thoughts to me that I am alive and OK. On 2nd January I had a major melt down. I guess it had been coming for a couple of weeks. My eldest son took me off to hospital and I have been in a psych ward for the past week. Mind you I took one look at my sons on Friday and wanted out of the place immediately as they are clearly stressed by my depression and me being in a psych unit. So I have had to discharge myself early, it was a choice as to whose needs were more important. And the kids needs won out over mine. I am on new meds. Must look them up in a minute and see what they are. I am back into therapy tomorrow and have to also visit my GP. I feel as though I have gotten nowhere over the past six and a bit months and that I am again back at square one. Again thankyou all for persevering with my dreadful state of mind. If you dont mind I will not add to that thread as when I reviewed my words, I found it brought all of those horid emotions back to the surface.