I can't help feeling that I am a bad mother, and I can't seem to change things. My daughter has just turned four, she won't start school for another 6 months or so. I am at home with her all day, every day, except weekends. I don't want to play with her, or read with her, or even talk to her. If I do, I feel panicky and trapped. I don't want to go to the park, or even the shops, with her, I don't want to go outside. When my husband come home, he plays with her, and he's happy to see her. I just can't find that in me any more. She's such a happy confident girl, and I'm worried that I'm harming her and she'll become sad like me. Even thinking about forcing myself to change things makes me panic.