So my sister told me my former friend(I had not been in contact with anyone other than my family since a few years ago) that my friend had died last year. She committed suicide last year. It's a shock to me and I still can't believe since I don't dare to confirm it with my former friend(who has become my sister friend instead). But based on the time I had spend with her in the past. It's possible. But the worst thing is other than shock I don't feel anything else. Have years of social isolation(I have severe social phobia) turn me into a monster or something? I hope it's not true but if it's true at least she won't be suffering anymore. Will her family feel sad? Because I think her mother really did not love her. And I think her family is the reason for her to commit suicide. I might be wrong though. Sorry for my English. I'm not a native speaker. For peoples who choose to commit suicide I don't think it's a coward thing to do. In fact I think it took a lot of courage to want to end your life. I have not done that personally but I won't be looking down at the peoples who had tried it.