I don't know how serious I am. It's hard to assess when you're in the situation I guess. I want to write out what I'm feelings to get some feedback. I'm not really sure why I'm depressed. I don't have a reason to be. I have 2 great kids and a wonderful husband. They are the only things keeping me here. But I feel worthless and just plain miserable. I can't clean anymore. I'm irritable with my family, I sleep all day. I've been "suicidal" for about a month now. But the past few days it's gotten worse. I wrote out a suicide note just in case I decide to do it. I'm feeling more desensitized to the harm it would cause my family. I still think about the damage it would cause, but not nearly as much. I still have doubts though. What should I do? I can't go to the hospital again because of the weight it puts on my husband and family. They have to take off work in the middle of the day to take the kids to the babysitter, and get off work early to pick them up. So it's just not logical. My parents don't think I need to go to the hospital because they don't think I'm serious. The problem is I don't know how serious I am. I'm not one to be dramatic, so I'm not sure why they don't take me seriously. I'm sorry if this post is all over the place, I'm kind of in a panic.