Everyday I wake up and I think to myself, today is the day. I'm leaving this cruel world and there is no one going to stop me, I'm so determined but then I think about my younger brother and sister and it hits me. I'm so selfish and what I plan to do is something that could stick with them for the rest of their lives. This keeps me up at night, I cry just thinking about it. I love them so much, they will never understand how much I love them and want them to be happy and safe, but I can't do it, I can't be their "superwoman" and there will be days where things go wrong, I don't want them to go through it alone, I mean my parents, they're there but sometimes there a problems a parent can't understand or fix. I'm so confused.