I’m not even sure if it effects me or not, if its rape/molestation/etc., or I’m just crazy. When I was 6, 7, and 8, My 18 year old cousin would come over. We would play the N64, PS1 and I really liked him. But the only play he would play with me was if I rubbed “Maxx” (he named his P*****). He would lick my feet, suck on them D:, and masturbate against my feet. My mom walked in and found out, he’s in jail for 10 years, but I feel as though nothing happened. Every time I think about, I have no emotion, and feel nothing. My mom told me to forget about so I did. I think I’m just being sensitive, am I? When I was little, every time I drew an animal, I named it Maxx.