I rly need to lose at least 10kg. I hate myself. I often cry over the fact how fat and ugly i am. I am often crying in front of the mirror looking at me and my body...especially at my fat belly. I am sitting and lying in front of the mirror for checkinghow big my fat rolls are when i am sitting. I am a fucking binge eater. Today i ate so my much easter candy and chocolate ...i often binge and binge. And then i feel guilty. I actually lost 13kg last year because of weight watchers...and the last two or three kgs bcz of purging. But I wanna lost another 10kg. I will do some strict diets and starve but then i cant take it anymore and binge and purge. Sometimes I am purging when I feel guilty..but I don't rly think i have bulmia...i am not purging like every day ..not even every week...it is only like twice a month or so. When I was 16 I was purging more often..but then it stopped. I guess then it was pretty serious and I nearly had bulmia. I am having a lot of depressions bcz of my looks. I dunno if i am eating disordered...but i am actually quite close.