Hi all, There are some bad things that happened in my life. I can’t even think why I am living now. I am 25 was with a 32 old divorcee, lived together for 1.5 years, did not give her a commitment but poured heaps of love and gifts on her head. She was good girl who took care of me, looked for me and cared for me. She did not even talk to her friends when she was with me. We worked in the same office came home to her everyday day, slept in her arms and loved her way too much. Sometime we used to fight so bad that u thought I want to leave her. We parted ways and I thought to myself, I would be happy now. She told me she is actively searching for grooms. Within 3 weeks she told me she is getting married. All the time we used to speak everyday and never ever missed a day. One day she told me she is going to marry a guy and I asked her how can she do it in 3 weeks and she said all she wanted is someone to give me a commitment, she told me she wasted 1.5 yrs waiting for a commitment that I did not give. Somehow a rage came inside me,after seeing the guys photo, he looked good. The rage with alcohol and started calling her to the fact she changed the number and I emailed the new guy she was going marry, that I love her and want her back and he said, he does not want any part in this, they are marrying next week. He knows I was a nut case by then. I cut my wrist; everyone in my office knew I did that and pestering a girl who is marrying someone else. - Has anyone done so many bad things in their life more than me? - The guilt of what I did kills me, and also I lost my career. - Will god forgive me? This was the first girl in my life and I never had any other girl fiends. I have never cheated for money or anything of that sort.