Am i evil?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Pingu, Oct 7, 2008.

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  1. Pingu

    Pingu Well-Known Member

    Am i evil?
    I want people to miss me when im gone, miss me so much that they cant sleep at night, work or do anything anymore.. i want people to feel my pain, and know what hell my life has been like.. but i know i will be forgotten after a week, and that is whats pissing me off so much..
    Im sure they will come up with some stupid story like ''he's in heaven now, blabla'' but thats bullshit, im not going to heaven, and i want them to understand that.

    I hate happy people, i hate whenever i see people succeed at life. I hate people that can get a girl just by walking outside the door in 5 minutes..
    I hate people that are everything im not!
  2. Anime-Zodiac

    Anime-Zodiac Well-Known Member

    Your not evil for wanting those things. It's understandable.
  3. nagisa

    nagisa Staff Alumni

    No you aren't evil. I think it's normal to feel that way.
  4. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    You're not evil. Just someone who hasnt been understood.
  5. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Your not evil you just need some friends, which you have found here at the forum. Don't drag yourself down! Get out of the house and do something. If you just sit idle at home you will turn out like me an isolationist. Trust me it is not what you want. It took me along time to make peace with it and now I prefer being alone. I don't even tell my family what I am thinking. I really am gratefull to everyone here at the forum for sticking with me!!!Take Care!~Joseph~
  6. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    No, you're not evil. I can understand why you feel like that.
  7. Pingu

    Pingu Well-Known Member

    You see, i got friends.. but my situation is hard to explain.. i haven't gone out of the house in 4 months, only to the store and back, and it sucks so hard.. the only connection i got with my friends now is through internet..
    Yep, i quit school, im a looser, life aint worth living, byebye life!
  8. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Have you thought about home schooling? I don't know how supportive your parents are, but you can check into it and have your mom do the teaching. Or maybe do night classes because they aren't as busy as day classes are.
    Just some ideas, I don't know if you can use them!! Take Care!~Joseph~
  9. Pingu

    Pingu Well-Known Member

    oh my parents been trying everything to get me back at school, i just dont want to.. i just dont see the point in going to school when ur dead in a month :smile: but thanks anyway..
    i guess ill just sit in my room and feel sorry for myself until the big day comes..
    oh i wish i killed myself when i was still at school, now nobody will know im dead :mad: not like they would care, but still :laugh:
  10. Theory

    Theory Well-Known Member

    Are you planning to end this in one month? Kewlcheese please don't do that! Canyou tell me your plan? <When? Where? How?> :unsure::huh:
    You're not alone and you're not helping by isolating yourself! :hug:
  11. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Please kewlcheese, don't go through with your suicide plan. I don't know why you would feel that you're evil, when you haven't done anything evil before? Everyone makes mistakes. Plus there are no evil cheeses, some are bitter tasting but they're all pretty nice. I think you should start going back to school. Talk to your teachers and counselours about how you're feeling. They can be really helpful if they know your situation. :hug:
  12. Pingu

    Pingu Well-Known Member

    Yes, its planed and its going to happen, but i wont give you any details.. Its a ''last resort plan''.. im gonna try end it before the big day, to make it look better for whoever find me, but if i dont succeed, ill use that plan
  13. perry_mason

    perry_mason Well-Known Member

    no you are not evil for feeling that way (i sometimes feel like that as well).

    people will miss you and they will feel pain over the fact that you have gone.

    i seem to remember from your other posts that you are only young and i dont know what has brought you to this point (sorry if i missed your story from your other posts) but you dont need to go through with this plan of yours, you are still young and have time to change things if you want to.
  14. DrowningInTears

    DrowningInTears Well-Known Member

    ur not evil for wanting this suffering to stop. if u are then so am i. i cant suceed at anything.
  15. HappyAZaClaM

    HappyAZaClaM Guest

    you not evil. you just not thrilled with da world you lives in.
    joins the club. maybe we can all makes it better if we works tagether!

    this is not a pile of platitudinous BS. I don't know what the hell we're
    all gonna DO to make this a better place. but, it's a thought. you hang
    on. you be aright. and again, NO. not evil. those are very common
    things to think or feel.
    Last edited: Oct 18, 2008
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