Am I fucked up?? (trigger warning)

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Confused_Tomboy, Jun 12, 2011.

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  1. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    Am I fucked up?? I love to self harm..but then again i don't....The 1 thing i'm 100% sure on is that I dnt care bout the scars...they dnt faze me 1 bit...is that normal? I think the after effects look sooo cool! The scars, the looks, the feel...etc...plz tell me that I AM fucked up...bc I know I am...
     
  2. blondeellen

    blondeellen Well-Known Member

    well the thinking they look may be a bit but tbh i feel the same about cutting otherwise :/ the scars/cuts just seem part of me
     
  3. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    yea...I just love the look...I love everything bout doing it....I know I'm fucked up..but am I really fucked up?????
     
  4. blondeellen

    blondeellen Well-Known Member

    not more than a lot of people. unless you love it in a fashion statement way. in which case your really fucked up :L but if its just how it looks as part of you then thats reasonable normal fucked up? if that makes sense :S :L
     
  5. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    uhhh....well...lets not go into the fashion sense here....but idk....i love looking at my scars and marks..they're soooo cool!
     
  6. blondeellen

    blondeellen Well-Known Member

    ok well then other than obviously you should be seeing someone about the self harming (pfft im a hypocrite) i think thats vaguely normal
     
  7. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    ok..im glad i got ur opion
     
  8. Growing Pains

    Growing Pains Well-Known Member

    Yeah, you probably should see someone about it (I'm also a hypocrite), but it is slightly normal. When I first started I kind of liked seeing the scars. I grew out of it but I still don't hate them, per se. I couldn't describe how I feel about them even if I tried.
     
  9. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    nice...i shall think about seeing someone...but idk sense both of u said im normal...
     
  10. hollowvoice

    hollowvoice Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    i dont think your f'd up either i need my wrist scar to be fresh and stand out so i can just atleast think im alive even though i hide it away from sight of others just knowing it their gives me a sense of calm i guess
     
  11. blondeellen

    blondeellen Well-Known Member

    yes normal...for someone that cuts. not totally not needing help normal
     
  12. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    yea...i just want to grab my cutting knife out of my bucket right now and cut....but my ass would be in sooo much trouble...ill wait another hour ot so...i need new and fresh wounds on my arms right now
     
  13. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    You are not messed up hun. For a person that does SH it's pretty normal.

    I liked to stare at my scars for ages because it made me feel happy knowing it was the only way I could escape. I wanted so many of them and all the time.

    It's essentially an addiction, and with most addictions you need to keep going, so you are not messed up at all.

    However, I would really urge you to find help somewhere, anywhere. It can really take over your life and ruin it..Not something I would like to see happen to you..

    Take care, and if you do cut..do it safely

    :hug: xx
     
  14. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    thanks..and u know...when u said "if u cut..do it safely"? well that's a contradicting statement lol cool cool...I've tried many things...and I was up for 28 straight this weekend... 5pm Sat. to 9pm Sun. I was completely out of it...my laptop asked me to marry him and I talked with the toilet paper and it talked back...I dnt say I'm fucked up now...no.I say I'm EXTREMELY FUCKED UP NOW!!
     
  15. Moat

    Moat Banned Member

    I suppose it doesn't matter too much what you think of the scars, as long as you are open to talk to everyone who asks about them exactly how you got them (unless you already have a cover-story made up, like they are cat scratches).
     
  16. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    Not all my scars are from cutting...only a small amount to be precise...all the other ones r from scratching, eraser burns, salt and ice (which is one of my favorites), and engraving m skin with a pencil (which is also my favorite)...so my scares vary...and I am being open and honest right now...for once....i did on my other posts and threads as well....and i still dnt think im in reality...that's one of my other threads...
     
  17. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    My statement was not contradicting. I just meant, if you really can't stop yourself then at least use clean equipment and dress it ect.. Just because a person does self harm doesn't mean the person is suicidal.

    And you are not fucked up..You are tired. If anyone stayed awake that long I expect we would be seeing similar things. You just need to give yourself some relax time, do something you enjoy to keep your mind off of the bad stuff.

    Honestly you are only human, not fucked up at all :hug: xx
     
  18. Confused_Tomboy

    Confused_Tomboy Well-Known Member

    thanks..but i also made this thread b4 the 28 hour thing...sooo....
     
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