What would you do? Bullied by my manager for several months to the point I had to make formal complaint, was about to get my career that meant the world to me, I might still do, but he is like Jekhyl and Hyde and will lie (the manager) - with my luck he will come out smiling. Someone who used to help people in their career? Now wants to kill themself. I know how I'd do it as don't have a gun. I want to knock down a bottle of vodka, wine, pills and leave a note on my body saying 'DO NOT REVIVE' as even concerned if I try to kill myself, that won't work either and I'll be brain damaged. Sorry for this message. It's Saturday nite - most are out PARTYING or with loved ones. I can't tell my Dad, he is 70, I can't tell anyone I KNOW how I really feel. I put on a facade. This is me. Before I lived. Now I just exist, worrying every day, and night about my career and injustice and workplace bullies. Maybe I could have coped better had I not been beaten up by a man for six months 3 yrs ago. I'm very sensitive to what's not right. If I leave this world I leave my twin sister, I hate to think of what that will do to her, but this horrid thought of killing myself keeps coming back. My mum is dead, she died when I was 16. I was hoping I will meet her in heaven. Thank you for reading this.