I suffer delusions, I see patterns that I know are creations of my own mind. I have the feeling that a tyrannical god is picking on me, every time I feel good, my brain says 'That's God, luring you into a sense of false security, so he can hurt you more.' I think I'm going to hell. I see patterns and symbols, and I know I'm making it up in my head, but I can't shake them off. I don't know what to do.