I've never cut myself, I'm to afraid of the pain. But I used to strangle myself, either with my hands or a belt, when I lost control over my feelings. I've always been glad that I haven't able to cut, but maybe the strangling is just as bad. The marks disappear relatively fast, so no one notice. It used to be an obsession, but I had to stop when my suicidal thoughts came to often. I hadn't tried to strangle myself in over a year, but since the suicidal thoughts took over my life last week, the obsession came back. Anyone have any advice of how to get it away?