This really isn't a great introduction, but it is what I am thinking at the time. This is my first post here as I just joined 10 minutes ago. I have wanted to kill myself for so long. Way back when, in the olden days, <Mod Edit:Methods> I'm 59 so that's all we had back then. I was 15 at the time. I wanted to die and I honestly thought I was going to die. I went and layed on the grass in the backyard. Somehow I ended up in the hospital with a tube down my throat. I really do wish that would have ended my life. I have so many regrets, guilt, shame, terrible pain that would have never happened if I had not lived. I just can't believe what my life looks like. How could I have gone so wrong. I honestly do not have friends. and no family at all. I feel so lost and stupid for letting this happen I have three women that are hanging on by a thread as far as calling them friends. They don't get it or get me. And they, like everyone just don't have the time to care. Everyone is running around in this freaking crazy world and so many of the really important things in life are being left behind, in the dust. That's all for now. I've never done anything like this before, so I hope I'm doing it right. PJ
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