Am i insane?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Secret wounds, Nov 20, 2007.

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  1. Secret wounds

    Secret wounds Well-Known Member

    Is it just me or does anyone else enjoy the feeling of being suicidal? I seem to thrive on being unhappy and cutting myself. I find excuses to slash my arms to have suicidal thoughts. I watch movies that are triggering listen to songs that are about self harming/suicide (i find comfort in them), read books that are depressing. I dont know what the hell is wrong with me. I dont know what is wrong with me, i've forgotten how to feel 'normal'.

    I think i need help i dont know everything in my mind is so mixed up im so desperate to kill myself but i dont, i sit and suffer in silence i sometimes think iv gone so far away from reality that i cant find my way back. Theres always more reasons to kill myself rather than live. Whats the point in living?

    I wish i could kill myself i wish someone would give me the courage to do it i cant fuckin think straight anymore.
  2. protonaut

    protonaut Well-Known Member

    Actually, I'm at the point where I just accept everything. There's no pain, no pleasure - just emptiness. That's why I'm not suicidal, and why should I be? Life is hell, but it's a hell that I embrace. In fact, I seem to welcome challenge, as it gives me a purpose - and what's more challenging than survival?
  3. DynamiteKid

    DynamiteKid Well-Known Member

    i feel u man. i also listen to songs about suicide late at night and wish i had the courage to kill myself. I hope i can get around to doin it 1 day, life sucks!
  4. WhyMeWhy

    WhyMeWhy Well-Known Member

    I thrive in darkness.... video games about death and where the ending is commitin suicide(yes they exist) are just awesome. And I listen to music that can hardly be defined as music at all because the band name is Brighter Death Now the most original band name I've ever heard. Sweet!
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