or is it just that I don't matter? I know I'm not worth anyones time. I'm not worth anything. I'm trying to convince myself that noone will miss me when I'm gone, but thats not true. They will miss me as someone who always do what they ask, buy things for them, help them with computer problems and don't bother them if they don't want to be bothered. They won't miss me for the person I am. I can't do this anymore, I'm done fighting.