harder than i think... saying this is harder than i think...my brother was throwing nasty words about in the early morning and for the first time, i think is this verbal abuse? am i being verbally abused? it was all very funny and i laughed. i feel bad for mum and dad who is taking in his words and trying to calm him down. then i feel bad for him who seems so stressed out. then i feel really bad for him cuz mum was at fault and the funny thing is she doesnt think she is. so he was roaring about in the living room at mum and mum was like,"i did this because you didnt so-and-so" mum is not standing up to him. she really thinks she's not at fault. i cried. cuz mum seem to have lose somewhat of her mind these days. maybe it's old age. she doesnt care abt things anymore, abt me too. she will get angry in the past. she will try to retort then ignore everyone for the rest of the day. now she's all different. it's kinda sad. then again, depsite its her fault and i truely think so, it feels so good to see my brother helpless. he's all angry and ready to take it out on her but she doesnt care. really,not even a trace of sorry in her voice. then brother get really upset and start yanking abt other stuff, really screaming his head off and u know, what mum said, "don't act crazy". hahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's the one thing im always afraid to hear from mum. she just say it out just now. i cant say how happy i am. and her voice!!!!!!!!!! like a mother. she talks like a mother. the way she used to when we are kids. really, its those voice that make u snap up and listen.that's the coolest thing i ever had happened to me. how long have i not hear her voice like that? my mum's not gone. she may be old and peaceful but she still got the force in her. my brother just keep quiet and go out. i cant wait the day for my brother to become a millionaire then he can move out and we wont see him again. verbal abuse!? is this it!? lolz......it's still so funny to me. this whole incident puts a smile on my face. really im so happy and hurt at the same time but everything's just so funny.am i going mad lolz!??!? hahahahah!!!!!