I was sexually abused nearly a year ago but it wasn't that bad. My dad has been emotionally and verbally abusing me ever since I can remember, but I've dealt with it fine. I was also bullied, and that completely crushed me. I don't know why it was this that bothered me the most. When I write it like this it seems really bad but I don't know i I is. There's times when I'm going completely crazy thinking I'm going to cut myself and I'm all fidgety. But the next night I'm all calm (scared, but fine). I'm not sure if I'm overreacting. It sounds stupid when I ask it but I still can't stop thinking that maybe I'm exaggerating everything and that there's so many other people who dealt with way worse stuff. I feel awful that I need to complain about my problems. But then every night I'm in bed I feel scared of I don't know what. And then I can't breathe and sometimes I cry. I don't know what's going on with me. Is this not that big of a deal? I'd ask someone but I don't want them to think I'm just looking for attention. I don't wanna be all sad and pathetic. Sometimes I think I'm just thinking everything for attention but if I'm not telling anyone I know, is it still just for attention?