I'm still alive, still trying to end this life, still ending up in hospital from Od's..and now i'm drinking heavy everynight and using smack. I o'd on tueday night. I can't get any support, or help as i keep being told I need more then just counselling. i'm screwed, i'm past help and if tablets don't kill me the smack and drink will...yet nobody will listen that I cna't cope with life. I wa only doing smack at weekends, i was drinking during the week, but now i'm doing smack every other day and have no fight to fight me. I will be dead soon and yet all the help i've asked for has been rejecteddddd. not sure what to do, or what I need. am i really to far over the line to come back, am I going to be deadd in a feweweeks tine.