I have been picking scars and poping zits for years as a form of pleasure (more so with the poping pimples,the pain and the feeling of the pus flying out just feels nice). As a result I have some pretty noticable scars on my face, back & groinal area. I don't know if that would be more on the OCD side of things then SH. However, recently I have been purposly inducing bloody noses just to bleed. I've had more then 5 bloody noses in one day with each one lasting proably 10-15 minutes. I also tried to stab myself with a small shard from a mirror... it was too small & blunt to do anything. Me failing at making this random impulse just got me even more depressed. Yesturday I found a shard from that mirror again and I broke it in half to make it sharper and I started cutting the top of my hand. I didn't feel like dieing or really depressed when I was doing it, I just was. The cuts really aren't bad at all, they are really closer to a cat scrath <mod edit:resistance - link to image removed - could be triggering> then what is typically associated with cutting. I loss my device for the cuttig and don't really feel the urge to use it again because I feel so guilty for having all of these scratches on my hand. Also, the bloody noses <mod edit:resistance - link to image removed - could be triggering> I don't really tend to do anything about them. I have a few shirts that have become a bit bloody becase of them and I've had blood all over my face several times because of it. So since I was just bleeding I let it fall someplace that I clean easily but not make a mess on stainable thinks like bedding and clothes. I don't know why I went and took those pictures. I think they are pretty damn anonymous though, if they wern't I would probably be having a panic attack right now.