I have suffered from ulcerative colitis for 2 years. I am only 21 and face the prospect of having a stoma, possibly for the rest of my life (a stoma is a bag that your body waste is stored in because they need to remove my colon). I have no social life anymore because of how hard it is because of my illness, and my girlfriend of 2 years has split up with me. I now feel as though I'm never going to meet anyone because A) I don't have/want a social life B) I'm a miserable person. People constantly tell me to keep positive but I can't seem to do it. I sometimes think about suicide but know my family would be ashamed of me and to be honest I don't have the guts to do it anyway. I wish constantly I was in a car accident so I didn't have to do it myself. I feel like I have nothing to live for because I have zero confidence in myself and what I have to offer and face a life with no loved one of friends.