About a year ago my closest friend committed suicide while I was on holiday. I had made him a promise that I would never be out of contact while I was away, but when we came back home for two days in the middle, I left my phone charger at home. When I got back from my holiday, I got a phone call telling me that he was dead. When I charged my phone, I found that I had a missed call from him - I had broken the promise I made him. Many people stopped talking to me, and refused to tell me where his grave is, as his death was my responsibility. I still miss him so much. I was just starting to think a bit less about all of this, and what happened, when yesterday I met up with two people I hadn't seen in a long while. I went back to their house, and it was all going well until we went out to get some chips. One of the two people said he would rather stay at the house to use the internet, and we thought no more of it. But when we got back in, the first thing I saw was my friend hanging over the stairs. We cut him down and called an ambulance. He is currently unconscious in hospital, and doctors are unsure if there is brain damage. But it makes me wonder...am I the cause of the deaths of my friends? Is there some contract that stipulates that if you are friends with me you must commit suicide? I don't hold out much hope for the rest of my friends - when they work out the average lifespan of a person who is friends with me, I'm certain they won't stick around for long.