am i to blame ?

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by takencontrol, Feb 4, 2011.

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  1. takencontrol

    takencontrol Well-Known Member

    im not quite sure where im going with this but here goes; for the last few years my life has been hell, admitting an alcohol problem, detox, counselling, different meds to help stabilise my mood and deal with the detox. then there was getting to the root of the problem...my past.. now im doing therapy to try help bring that stuff to the surface and put it away out of harms way. now im attending 3 differents support networks to do this and ive never felt worse in my life. i know that is part of the process and normal but ive never felt suicidal before now, so why put myself through it ? am i to blame for the past, am i to blame for the present, am i to blame for not being able to pick myself up out of this mess ? is all this shit in fact my fault ??? i dont know but what i do know is its getting harder and harder to get through each day.. even worse on a appointment day. im tired of being tired, im tired of not sleeping, im tired of.....life in general.
     
  2. may71

    may71 Well-Known Member

    doesn't sound to me like it is your fault.

    other people know more about therapy than me, so I can't really comment too much.
     
  3. Dave_N

    Dave_N Banned Member

    You're not to blame brownie. You're doing the best that you can. :hug:
     
  4. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    You are right that when one works on these issues there is always a storm before the quiet...taking responsibility is very different than blame...please be good to yourself during this process...you deserve to feel better...J
     
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