YEsterdat i took 5 times over the limit of a drig and went counselling, when i got there she kinda of new something wasn't right but could't tell her..then 5 minutes to go she asked me to write it down and i did. I feel so stupid and don't think i can face them again. i was being sick, nad still being sick. today i'm doing it again. i'm taking too many tablets.I kep being sick, i'm tired. my thoughts are just on causing as much destruction as possible and the consequences death...I don't know why i'm doing this, i rang support line, do I want to die or stop the feelings...stop the feelins, thoughts, memories, vioces but its not happening so i guess I want to die, but if i wanted to kill myself so badly then why aren't the voulum of tablets working, i've checked to see what i need to take, taking into consideration my height, weight and still here i am. I don't understand me. can anybody help me, or am I really too far gone? Its ok if not, i do understand cause I am just another thing is this world thats taking up space. I am worth nothing. I am useless. I am pathetic. and if you want to shourt, hit me, go ahead cause I'm used to it now. you can do what ever you want to me.