I have no reason to continue this life. I know it may sound ridiculous because I'm only 16 but I have lost all my hope for the future. I will never be anything else than loner forever. I don't want it. I don't have any friends, I really want to make friends with other people but I'm unable to do it. I have social anxiety, I'm too shy and antisocial. I have been alone a few years now, not a long time but it's enough for me. At school everyone hate me, they stare me, talk shit about me, laugh at me, ignore me, all because they have noticed that I'm just a weird loner. They don't bully me but it still hurts. I have talked about this with many psychologists but it does not help me. I also eat "happy pills" but still day by day I feel more sadder. I don't know what to do anymore. I hate myself.. I haven't told for anyone that I'm planning to do suicide. I can't tell to psychologists or anyone else about my suicide plans, I know they can put me into mental hospital or somewhere then. I know how my family would be sad if I kill myself, this is why I feel I'm selfish if I do it. I don't want to cause problems for them but I have already decided which way I can kill myself.