So when i was a child i was physically and sexually abused and because of that I dont want to be intimate with men. Everytime i had a boyfriend in school i was verry uncomfortable with holding hands and kissing i just felt so disgusting with myself and i would end the relationship because i just didnt want to be in it anymore i would just get uncomfortable and skittish. I dont ever want to be intimate all i want is just friendship. Has anyone ever felt this way. I know what im feeling is natural and im not going to feel ashamed because of my feelings. I just dont think that ill ever be ok with intamicy ever.