i am lost, so sad, so sad inside. feels like my heart is breaking with the pain, surrounded by my family and i have never so felt so intensely alone. i wish i could close my eyes and fade away, not think about the consequences and the damage i might cause. just to be free. im irish. its so grey here, the world has become so grey and i wish it would end.......i dont even want to be happy anymore because happiness is short lived....iv given myself that 24hrs.... more times than i deserve......is there ever a time when its permitted to stop?