I really feel like I've sunk to a new, very low place. My body is shutting down, I just feel it. It doesn't let me sleep, eat, and I am even having problems like nose bleeds (which I never had before). I've been trying hard to recover from recent events. Last night I knocked myself out with sleeping pills so that I wouldn't do anything drastic... feared that past midnight and I'd probably put my 'plan' into action. I slept for almost seven hours, woke up feeling safe and comfortable, then broke into tears. I am desperate now, in crisis even, really HONESTLY not sure if I can get myself to this point tomorrow. I've already reached out to everyone, friends family and strangers, but no luck. I don't want to say 'suicidal' to them because they'll 'Baker Act' me and I'll end up in a hospital with happy drugs in my system. I am not crazy, just very alone and sad and tired. Thought our bodies naturally faught for self-preservation but mine is giving up on me regardless. I don't want to die, not now, am only 35 and could have a long life... even happy. I am ready to go but I know that I don't want to. What do I do know, right now???