Read it to about 1/2 way. Started crying. Rung a lot of bells. I don't know if I'll ever be able to talk about it all. I'd like to try - but not sure I can to a vast audience - as much as I love all you people.
I fear reading this. Not for the length but for the looking truth in the face possibility. In sharing with another of the SA and the family reaction to it, I was asked if I was aware of such a syndrome. Upon confessing I was not, it was explained to me. I thought surely this person is mad as my attacker was no stranger. I don't know if I should read this.
I read it, read the whole thread as a matter of fact... and my only reaction is, "oh god.... oh god.... oh god this explains so much....." it honestly does..... :badday: everything - it makes so much more sense now... :blue:
Wow..... I was in this situation 30 years ago. I have spent all this time thinking I was sick in the head because of my feelings about my violent partner. My parents continued to attack me about my "pathetic sickness" untill recently when I cut them out of my life. They used my staying with this guy as a weapon against me and said it proved I was crazy....I feel stunned. I really felt that I was mentally disturbed in this regard. No one wants to be bashed senseless. I couldn't work out why I couldn't leave. I had no confidence. I was 16. Thank you. I'm going off to have a good cry
interesting, i found myself realising i feel like i've been in a concentration camp. i don't know if i fit in with all of that but, the person in question, actually made a satire that he was part of a cult, and i was a spying fascist- he found my pain that funny, and after i screamed raped, he called me his sweet little girl.